Neurosis #literature #fiction #prose poem

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I suspect I suffer from an acute crisis of half-bloomed neurosis. My past emotions do not fully interfere with my current experiences. The converse is true too. No sophistry added. How boring.

I jump in the water dressed in black lingerie made from Calais laces and Lyon silks. I can feel the waves pounding my body while my mind drowns in the ambiguity of the French Nouveau Roman standing mid-way between modernism and post-modernism like a drunken sunset that cannot distinguish between yellow and orange.

The foliage of the sea turns burgundy. Your fingers contour my face.

Oh, you.

I forget that my favorite poet is Arthur Rimbaud with his “A thousand Dreams within me softly burn” and “I shed more tears than God could ever have required.” All I remember is that once I wrote: “I’ve never existed outside of your obsession with me and my interpretations of you.” 

There is something about these interpretations that make you burst in cascades of laughter and art your love for me with lust.

One morning, left by my pillow I found your reply written on a large index card: “I had to bury your existence inside my obsessions. If not, your love could have not been fully stabilized. You above anyone else know that an absolute correspondence in love does not exist. Love is mathematical singularity.”

A wet little bird shivers in my palms. The foliage of the sea turns darker.

Your fingers contour the back of my neck.

My eyes catch fire.

Night, have mercy on us.

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excerpt from my upcoming collection of poetry

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My book Passions: Love Poems and Other Writings featured in San Francisco Book Review and Manhattan Book Review.

@Gabriela Marie Milton

115 thoughts on “Neurosis #literature #fiction #prose poem

  1. Gorgeous writing dear Button.

    “French Nouveau Roman standing mid-way between modernism and post-modernism like a drunken sunset that cannot distinguish between yellow and orange.”

    Such beautiful and haunting imagery. So thought provoking. Lovely!

    Love honeybun 💕🤗❤️😘🥰🦋

    1. Thank you so much my dear Joni. I am glad you liked the imagery. Sending love and blessings. Have a wonderful day. Stay inspired and inspire others.
      xoxoxo…

      1. My pleasure Button I loved the entire piece. It was so unique. Your writing is amazing. I am sending love and hugs my friend. So excited for your next book. Love ❤️ honeybun

    1. Ingrid, you are so sweet. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your beautiful words and for your support. They mean a lot to me. Enjoy the rest of your day hon.
      xoxoxo

  2. ‘art your love for me with lust.’ ‘Love is mathematical singularity.’
    Fantabulous read. Romance blending from the words like fire in the eyes of the female. Oh so lovely it is.

    1. Sweetheart, you filled my love with joy. Thank you so much for this fabulous comment. It touched my heart. It made me happy.
      Sending love.
      xoxoxo

      1. I always enjoy your weaving. And sorry I could not vote for your poem. I read the post a lot later than the voting time period.

      2. Sweetheart, do not worry about the voting. Your love and your support mean a lot to me.
        xoxoxo

  3. “I’ve never existed outside of your obsession with me and my interpretations of you.”
    Read that line a few times. It resonated with me.
    Gorgeous and haunting from start to finish.
    You are amazing G. ❤️

    1. Good morning Drew. Thank you so much for your beautiful comment. It humbles me beyond words.
      You know what? That line resonates with me too 🙂
      You are amazing Beach Boy. Have a magical day.
      A rose for you…

      1. Good morning.
        So sorry. Just finished my morning exercise routiine. Have to get back into my blogging mind.
        This was so beautiful. It had such depth and emotion. You found. way to make us burn with your words.

        Speaking of burning……..it will be 88 here today. Beach Boy going to the pool. Need to start with the tan.

        Have a beautiful day. Spread your seeds of inspiration. We benfit from every single grain. 🌹

      2. Thank you again for the praise. 88 degrees. I miss that kind of weather. Going to the pool! Have fun! Well, not too much 😊😊😊
        Make your day fabulous 🌹

    1. Thank you so much sweetheart. I am grateful for your support and kindness. Sending love ❤️

    1. AW… thank you so much for the praise. It humbles me beyond words. It brightens my day. I hope you are well. Have a beautiful weak ahead.
      xoxo

      1. I was afraid of your answer. Love you Bo. Take care of yourself. Sending hugs to little B too.

    1. Aw… thank you from the bottom of my heart my dearest friend. Sending you love and plenty of hugs 🥰🥰🤗🤗

  4. Your words etch themselves into my soul G. You never fail to make me gasp with their magnificence. I’m sending you love, I never forget you for a moment ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    1. My fabulous Rachel, thank you so much for being here. I thought of you so many times. I miss you so much. I hope you are well sweetheart. I wanted to write to you many times. I didn’t do it because I did not trust myself not to complain. I had a period filled with accomplishments. I should have been happy. Yet, it has been so emotionally taxing. I am already complaining. I should stop.

      My beautiful Rachel, I truly hope the sun shines in your soul. I hope you are happy. It is still summer for you. Did you post? I miss your fabulous poetry. Please come back Rachel.

      1. Please my lovely G, if you were to complain, it would be the most beautifully masterful and poetic complaining that I would wish to listen to it all day long. You can’t help it, it’s in your bones. I’m sorry things have been so emotionally taxing. Please complain to me, ok? I have not posted, I don’t feel like I know how to any more. Maybe I forgot, I don’t know. I miss you, I feel I live in shadows these days, we used to talk about that a lot. I feel quiet somehow. Now I’m complaining. I should be happy too.

        Can I send you one of those boats with the flowers and chocolates. With a little light from the southern cross guiding the way xxxxxx

  5. Stand out lines for me are these, G – “I’ve never existed outside of your obsession with me and my interpretations of you.” … “You above anyone else know that an absolute correspondence in love does not exist. Love is mathematical singularity.” I’ve already lost count of their re-reads! Take care. E.

    1. Thank you so much my dearest E. Well, what can I say? Those are the lines.
      You take care too Eric.
      xoxo

    1. Diana, thank you so much. It means a lot to me that you like my writings. Forever grateful for everything you’ve done and you are doing for me.
      Sending hugs
      G.

    1. Thank you so much my dearest Cindy. That’s very sweet of you to say ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    1. Muchas gracias por el cumplido. Realmente me han emocionado.
      Saludos y gracias una vez más.
      Gabriela

  6. …and Lord have mercy on me!!!! DAMN, Gabriela. I’ve got to tell You, I read this once. My entire everything spun. Got up, walked around. Came back read again. Still spinning. You are beyond brilliant. I truly don’t even know what to say. I have missed You and this is a hell of a re-entry for me!!! Thank You, Beautiful. Sending so much Love Your way! 🤗❤️😊

    1. Aw.. Katy… have mercy on me. I am so grateful to you for this magnificent comment. My turn to walk around. It is so much love and warmth in your words that my heart melts even in this frigid winter morning. Oh, my fabulous Katy. You are brilliant and talented too. You are my Queen of Romance. Thank you again for this comment. It will stay with me for a long time.
      Sending you LOVE and HUGE HUGS.
      xoxo

      1. Ahhhh. Smiling SOOOO big!!! My absolute pleasure!!! It’s just the truth!!! And Thank You for Your kind words!!! I had a LOOOONNNGGG day and they just wrapped me in joy! Sending You LOVE and HUGE HUGS right back, Beauty!!! 💖💖💖

      2. My fabulous Katy, thank you so much. Here is for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹❤️❤️❤️❤️

    1. Aw… Amy thank you so much. I don’t know what else to say. You took my breath away. Sending plenty of love and blessings 🌹❤️🥰

    1. Cheryl thank you so much. You really made me happy tonight. Have a great week too and take care of yourself 🌹❤️🥰

    1. Dear Thomas, I am humbled by your words. Thank you for reading and thank you for the praise.
      Gabriela

  7. This is absolutely gorgeous.

    “I can feel the waves pounding my body while my mind drowns in the ambiguity of the French Nouveau Roman standing mid-way between modernism and post-modernism like a drunken sunset that cannot distinguish between yellow and orange.” This line sent shivers down my spine.

    “There is something about these interpretations that make you burst in cascades of laughter and art your love for me with lust.”
    Wow!! Just spectacular!!
    Love and hugs❤❤😍💕🤗

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