I am the voice of your past loves
resounding in your wildest fantasies
dressed in roses at the altar of your dreams
I am the one you’ve never had
my soul flows from the tears of the Nile
from the hands of children who still beg
through ruins, darkness, and deep pain
through wars which they will never understand
I am the last who will be saved
for I have sinned under the shadow of His cross
when Spanish fountains cry in the sunset
I am the Desdemona who you’ve never met
today Granada’s just the place
in which García Lorca once was killed
I am the feather of a gold macaw bird
and in the city where bells toll
I am the one whose cries you’ve never heard.
first published in STRAW #zine, London, October 2018
included in my upcoming poetry book Passions: Love Poems and Other Writings
please read my Spillwords Author of the Year (2019) interview here
@short-prose-fiction (Gabriela M)
image: Anna Ismagilova; Shuterstock; [link]
mysterious and supernatural, all my favourite ingredients in a beautiful poem. Have not heard the name Desdemona in a long time, that was a special touch
Thank you so much Gina. I am thrilled you liked the poem. Peace and blessing to you my dear friend. Thank you for the Sunday treat 🙂
xoxoxo
You are welcome, I had a great weekend in spite of all the coronavirus issues. Much love back to you dear friend, stay safe and have a good Sunday.
Thank you. You stay save too.
xoxo
thank you Gabriela, I will do my best
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That is so touching. Love it, and thank you for sharing.
My pleasure and thank you so much Leonie. I am glad you found it touching.
You are most welcome.
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Good morning G,
This had a mysterious, almost haunting feel to it. Your opening line set the mood with the voice from the past. And you carried this feel throughout. Wonderful piece of writing G.
While you weave this beautiful poetry, your work always maintains such a smooth flow
as if some of your pieces could be sung. It is marvelous how you do this so expertly.
Always inspired when I stop by. 🌹
Good morning Drew
Thank you for stopping by and thank you for the praise. I am trilled you think I weave beautiful poetry. That is really nice of you to say. As for “It is marvelous how you do this so expertly” – this touches my heart. I do not know what else to say.
I hope you safe and everyone around you does the same.
Have a fabulous day ahead and thank you again for your marvelous words
G.
My pleasure Amiga.
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Lovely ❤️
Thank you 💝🙏
What a wonderful Sunday treat, G! Mysterious and sublime!🌷❤️
Oh, thank you so much sweetheart. You made my Sunday much brighter. Sending you lots of love and hugs.
xoxo
Surely not more than you did, dearest! You are so welcome and sending love and hugs back at you. 🤗😘
love the allusions you have used here to heighten the mysterious feel
Thank you so much for your kind words. They mean a lot to me.
xoxo
So touching.
Thank you so much, sweetheart.
xoxo
You’re welcome
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A beautiful work of poetic artistry! The words conjure a mood which you enhance with such clear imagery that you feel a traveller through the world you’ve created. Lovely work Gabriela 💚
Thank you so much, Francisco. I am happy you liked the poem. I created a world. That is really a beautiful thing to say. It humbles me. I wish I could create beautiful worlds every day.
Here is a clip for the great artist that you are. Recognize Picasso? Of course the clip is about Modigliani..
Thank you Gabriela, I will watch it. Stay well
My pleasure, you too.
You’ve done it again! ❤🌹💕
Awwww…. thank you so much, Jen. I hope everything is ok and you are taking good care of yourself. Sending you lots of love.
xoxo
I’m fine. Even finer when I can read such beauty xoxo
Oh, you are melting my heart. Sending you plenty of love.
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I one of many… reading you, Gabriela.
You had to come with a great phrase, Eric. You always do that. “I one of many.” Beautiful.
I hope things are as ok as they can be in the UK.
Take good care.
G.
I one of many… inspired by you – as for the UK muddling through as is our way. You take care too my friend.
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Powerfully beautiful!
Thank you so much, Nico.
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Gabriela I had to read this over and over again. Many beautiful layers. I am so excited to buy this book especially after this incredibly intoxicating piece. I feel a sense of a great love that never was because you “the writer” felt the pain surrounding her so intensely. “My soul flows from tears of the Nile” your talk of war, pain, hunger all those things that make your soul weep. “Under the shadow of His cross” this phrase is so touching it brings one to tears. “Feather of a Gold Macon cries you’ve never heard.” Bravo, beautiful Button. Lost in your words which always transports us to another place. 💕😘 Love and blessings to you my friend Joni.
Joni my dear,
I have no words to return you kindness and tell you how wonderful you are.
“I feel a sense of a great love that never was because you “the writer” felt the pain surrounding her so intensely.” Perhaps you are right. Did I tell you that you are not only very talented, but very perceptive too?
“Lost in your words which always transports us to another place” Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything. You are an angel.
I feel like a little girl every time you call me button. I love that 🙂
Have a beautiful Sunday honeybun and thank you again from the bottom of my heart.
G.
You are welcome and so deserving, thank you for sharing a taste of your new book. You did mention I was perceptive and I am you are right. Love always beautiful Button. By the way I love honeybun. Reminds me of the days when sisters slept together, drawing circles on each other’s arms to help one another fall asleep. When you helped warm each other’s feet. When women were not so jealous of other women who had beauty or gifts but felt happiness for them. Women should always support one another. This is also the person I feel you are Button. Tender hearts get hurt but it makes us who we are. Have a blessed Sabbath and stay safe. 😘😘💕
Joni, your comment humbles me beyond words. I am glad you love “honeybun” and it reminds you of happy times.
“When women were not so jealous of other women who had beauty or gifts but felt happiness for them.” It sounds like paradise, doesn’t it?
“Women should always support one another.” I am a big advocate of that. In my work I dedicate a lot of time to that.
Thank you so much for the kind wishes. Have a blessed week honeybun. Make it fabulous.
xoxo
Thank you. You too beautiful Button. 😘😘
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You too beautiful Button. 😘😘
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Magical and mysterious
Thank you so much sweetheart ❤️💕🌸💐
Most beautiful,dear G!!
Thank you Aruna 🙂
Most welcome,dear!!
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So well done. A kidney punch. Perhaps my favorite of yours thus far.
D
Thank you so much Devon. I am so trilled you liked it. You really made my afternoon beautiful.
Gabriela
You are most welcome. Looking forward to your next.
D
Thank you 🙂
G.
Another amazingly great poem, Gabriela❣️
Thank you so much Judy 💕💝💐
You’re very welcome, Gabriela❣️🤗🌷
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When is the book coming out???
Thank you for asking sweetie. I can’t tell you how grateful I am for your question. The book is scheduled to come out in a month. It could be sooner. Once I have more updates I’ll let everyone know. Sending you hugs and love 🤗💝🌸❤️
Please do, I am waiting in anticipation! I adore your writing!
You really brought tears of joy in my eyes. Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️
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Great poem. Great photo.
Thank you. I am very grateful for your support 🙂
You are welcome. I am grateful for you.
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Me like your smiley face.
Oh, thank you.
Oh you are very graciously welcome.
Me siento el hombre más afortunado por poder disrutar de tu poesía.
Leerte me ayuda a comprender el sentido de la existencia porque escribes con una pasión única para describir ese amor que alguna vez existió.
Sacaste a la luz un poema que da por sentado la razón de haber recibido el reconocimiento que te mereces por tener ese talento innato para hacer poesía.
Lo único que lamento es no poder leer tu libro por el idioma pero cada vez que quiero llenar mi espritu de paz y sabiduría, recurro a las gotas de tus versos para disfrutar, sentado al borde de la luna, de tus poemas.
Bien por ti Gabriela. Cuídate mucho
Un abrazo con todo mi carño
Manuel
Y me siento la mujer más afortunada por poder disfrutar de tu poesía, Manuel. Gracias por tus maravillosas palabras. Son un excelente regalo. Traduciré mi libro al español. Ese es el plan.
Mi regalo para ti
“No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.”
Pablo Neruda
Buenas noches, Manuel. Te agradezco mucho.
Gabriela
Vaya!!! Qué regalo más maravillosa Gabriela. Llenas mi alma de regocijo y siento que mi corazón va a estallar.
¿Es posible que alguien amé así?
Qué dice al respecto.
Sería genial traducir tu libro. Causaría un impacto inusitado. Tenlo por seguro.
Un beso
Manuel
¿Es posible que alguien amé así?
El amor existe, Manuel. Es posible
“Sería genial traducir tu libro. Causaría un impacto inusitado” Eso espero
Besos
Gabriela
Gabriela, I love the references and the overall surreal tone very reflective of Lorca’s writings from his time in Madrid. You have such a beautiful way of bringing the past forward in such a sober and emotional way! Well written!
Hi Brad, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
“the overall surreal tone very reflective of Lorca’s writings from his time in Madrid” Awww… that’s big praise. And it’s humbling. You brought me to my knees. My deepest thanks to you and my best wishes to you and your entire family.
Take care Brad.
G.
This is because you are a brilliant poet!
Thank you so much Tamara. Please know you are a brilliant poet too.
Awe, thank you 😊
Always 💕
Amazing!!🌸🌸
Thank you. Thank you. 🙏
My pleasure❤
So beautifully penned. I loved this 💕
Thank you so much Miriam. I am delighted you like it.
xoxo
I told you, I have so many favourites already, and you keep adding to them. I have come to accept and love this situation entirely. For me, the ending resounds in my ears like the church bells.
“I am the one whose cries you’ve never heard.” Never heard despite…. tears flowing from the soul of the Nile, being the voice of past loves.
So stunning, and such a great poem for my Monday. Hugs and love and flowers 🌸 🌸🌸🌸🌸
Wow! What an incredible work!
Thank you so much Katy 🌸
Wonderful !!!!
Thank you so much Luisa 💝
DREW WASN’T KIDDING! 😀
I take it as a compliment, so thank you very much!
Gabriela
WAS VERY MUCH MEANT AS ONE! 🙂
Thank you so much. I am trilled you enjoyed the poem 🙂
Best wishes
G.
ORT-ORT-ORT-! 😀
Wow!! Awesome Gabriela! Loved this!
xoxo
I am delighted you liked it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
xoxo
You do sound like the one.
Beautifully written Gabriella, I love this ❤️
Thank you so much, Jude. You warmed my heart.
Take care, my friend.
My pleasure G
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‘The voice of the past love’
Profound and serene.
Thank you sweetie, You are so good to me today.
xoxo
Your poems are attractive. 🙂
xoxo
I am humbled by your words. Thank you again.
i saw your poems in your site and i liked them, especially your poems about lorca. it’s so impressive.
Oh, thank you so much Mustafa. Your words fill my heart with joy.
Great stuff!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💜
Master of the Pen ✒️ Humble
I am humbled by your comment. Thank you so much.